Soooo, we’re finally back. I actually sat down and wrote a lot of stuff on Monday, but after I read it, I wasn’t quite satisfied so I deleted it. I’m still new at this, don’t be harsh me.
I’m going to write a few parts and keep it simple. It’s about friendship. We’ve all been in a high school and thought the friendships are going to last forever. We were all wrong. Yes, I do have five friends from school but now we’re miles apart. We visit each other as much as possible but distances are a mean thing. I moved to Germany after high school, got to the University and didn’t even know where the building was, in which I had lessons that day. My father was so kind and went with me so I don’t feel even worse than I did that day. Again THE first day. I’m sure everyone knows what I’m talking about. Everyone had their first something, first day of school/university, work, in a new city… But I was already tired. I had quiet a few first days and hated it not to know anyone. You must think, why would she even do it if she hated it so much? I just wanted a better future for myself than I could imagine in my motherland. So I told myself, the beginning is hard but it’s gonna be worth it. It was. I mean I’m still studying hard but I’m not alone. I have my friends. They’re the one ‘to ride or die’ for and the best thing that nothing changed even tough I moved (yes, again).
My friends visited me for the weekend and I could feel my inner battery charging by just chatting and laughing with them. They uncomplicated, they behave like family, they’re not judgy, they’re just everything what any of us needs nowadays.
I’m still very young but I know what good and what isn’t for me. The last few months thought me to remove toxic people from my life. Nobody needs ‘friends’ who talks about you behind their back or stabs a knife right into your heart. The fewer people you have around you, the safer you are. I can’t tell if it’s the problem of the modern world, but I don’t care. I live now and that’s what’s important.
Leave your phone. Shut down your computer. Turn off your Internet. Just live for a few moments, day, weekends and take all the time you need. Sometimes we’re not aware how much time we need to recover. And when you stop being available all the time, you’ll see who actually cherishes your time away from the phone. There are plenty stuff you should see and do outside and if you’re not the ‘nature’ type – no problem – just lay down and enjoy your piece of quiet or your new favorite album.
We have a lot to tell about the topic friendship and we hope you’ll come back soon and read our next article 🙂
XOXO,
Smol n Big
Smol & Big 