It’s raining (man… hallelujah?)*

It’s May. You wouldn’t say so if you’d look outside my window. Last year, on this exact same day it was waaay too hot but I liked that. You get up, put on a T-Shirt, jeans, sneakers and you’re ready to go. Now, I get up (too late, of course), say sorry to our warm and cozy bed and the mission begins. How many layers do I have to wear, which umbrella won’t break because it’s pretty windy, which sneakers are waterproof, …?

*I just wanted to say you shouldn’t wonder if you see lyrics in the title. I’m an annoying person who always has a song stuck in her head and people around me know which one it is. No need for explaining how they know it 🙂 I hope you don’t mind. Big got used to it (or kinda had to ), you don’t have to but it would be nice if you’d opened our post!

Do you like rain? What do you do when it’s raining?

Big really enjoys to be at home, watch movies and chill, I just want to sleep and that’s not good because it’s time to start studying for my finals. As I mentioned, German isn’t my mother language and it takes longer for me to learn something. Today I was sitting in the library looking through the window and I can’t tell you what was happening outside but I can tell you which raindrop won the competition! Remember when you were a child and you were travelling somewhere far away, in time where nobody even had a phone (we’re not gonna mention smartphones) and you had to make up games to make the time go by faster? Well, today I was a (very unproductive) child.

How do you even pick a favorite raindrop? It’s not fair to the other one. No one is cheering for it. When we compare the raindrops with life in general, it’s pretty similar. Someone could be trying hard to make it’s life better but there’s always another person, who doesn’t have to be better than the first one, but has the support you’re missing. When your raindrop moves for a millimeter you’re happy, supportive and believe in it. Then, it’s quiet for a short period. It’s just standing there. And it’s the same with me when there’s no sun. I have the feeling that everybody is doing something, except me. The world is going and I’m standing still. And I don’t like that feeling.
Suddenly the drop moves very fast again and there’s hope. Hope that it’ll get to the end first. And sometimes I’m excited, for no specific reason , I’m just excited for a new day, irrelevant if the day was good or bad. Then the day comes and nothing happens in particular. I’m not feeling sad, happy, disappointed, nothing. And it’s the same with the end of the raindrop race. It doesn’t happen anything. A new drop appears at the top of the window, your new hope, your new day.

I do believe in new beginnings every day. Not the typically ‘new year, new chapter/book’ thing. But I couldn’t live without hope and it doesn’t have to do anything with faith or religion. It’s good to show every single of your feelings. Holding it back doesn’t do any good for you. Feeling empty hurts you and it’s hard to go back to ‘normal’ after it.
Hope, on the other hand, gives you something, yes sometimes even disappointment but it’s better than not to feel anything. Be like a raindrop once in a while, just don’t forget to cheer for yourself when you don’t have anyone to do it for you. Be your own hero, be happy when you ‘win’, motivate yourself to start from the beginning again. Think about goals you want to achieve and start doing something for yourself. If you don’t do it alone, no one else will.

These rainy day encourage me to be reminisce about myself, my week and goals. I’m taking small steps, so even if something bad happens I can get back on my feet quickly and improve myself.

Enough of daydreaming for today, I better start working on my goals, don’t wanna preach something I’m not living.

Have a good day,

Smol & Big

Easy like Sunday morning

I totally forgot about this song till a friend reminded me with her caption on her Instagram photo. What do you think when you read this song title?
Every single one of us has a different image of what their perfect Sunday morning should look like.

I, when I was child, didn’t like Sundays at all. I can’t say I hated them, hate is such a bad and strong word, which shouldn’t be used when not necessary… Saturdays are so loud, people walking by, minding their own business, meeting, drinking coffee together (we come from a land where drinking coffee on Saturday is like a must do), hanging out, going on day trips, etc. Then comes Sunday. A quite day, you hear birds outside or rain on your window, depending on the weather. I didn’t appreciate it, but I think most of children don’t. After that in high school, it was a day when you had to study or do some assignments so it wasn’t fun. Specifically if you’re a teenager who leaves everything till the very last minute and have to study at 10 pm and get up at 6 am the next morning.

Now, it’s different. I don’t like to sleep in long like Big. At first I couldn’t understand it, I wanted to use the whole day or take a nap after lunch (if I was very tired). But I take the time for myself, start the day with a longer bath, drink my tea in peace while reading books or get ready to go to the church.
Sometimes I like to stay in the bed and listen to my music, mostly throwback hits. And yes, I do like the easy mornings, even tough I don’t want to break up with anyone, especially not with Big or get high afterwards (it’s also illegal here 🙂 ) – read the lyrics if you’re not familiar with the text.

It doesn’t matter if you’re religious or not, everyone of us deserves a day off (we wrote about it a few posts ago). Why did I mention religion? To be clear, I don’t want to offend someone, it’s a personal choice if you believe in something/someone. But I just wanted to say it’s interesting (no matter what or who you believe in) every religion has a day off for its believers. Of course in their Holy Books it says you should reflect on God or your personal beliefs but it also says you shouldn’t work (no hard working) and should rest for a day. People wrote that Books ( if it’s holy for someone it should be written with a capital letter) a few hundreds and thousand years ago so that should mean something. Life was much different back in the days but it was simpler and I’m sure we can learn a lot from them (if we didn’t by now…). Take an easy day, maybe it means praying for someone, for others it’s climbing hills and so on, but do good for you. Appreciate yourself, take care of your health, not just physical, say no to thing that don’t make you happy. Stand out for your beliefs. Don’t be afraid to live. Be afraid not to live and rest.
Maybe you’ll be sorry one day.

Take it easy sometimes,

Smol & Big, sending a lot of positive vibes today